4chan Camgirl Loli-chan Grows Up

Loli and her older brother, Todd, were always kept on a short leash. Although they lived in an idyllic neighborhood lined with bougainvillea, Loli was never allowed to ride her pink Barbie bike without an adult around. She was also taught not to associate with neighborhood kids.

As a quiet child in elementary school, Loli enjoyed drawing with her best friend, a tanned girl who always wore her dark-brown hair in a single braid. All of that ended just before middle school, though. One day the friend said she was only using Loli for her collection of how-to-draw-manga books. "I always thought she drew better than me, so that was weird," Loli says.

Jaime and Ilene never enrolled Loli in activities or sports, which suited her just fine — she preferred to stay indoors and play videogames anyway. So she retreated into the world of Gaia Online, an anime-themed message board that caters to children. She was 13 years old. Her parents placed no restrictions on the time she was allowed to spend in the family's computer room, and she was left to her own devices. Loli would post on Gaia for hours, trying to make her avatar perfect.

"I wanted little digital clothes for my little digital person," she remembers. "So I sent someone pictures of my boobs and vagina."

She had experimented with sex on Yahoo Chat the year before, when she was 12, having sexually themed conversations with strangers. So, she reasoned, it wouldn't be that much weirder to take the next step. The whip-smart Loli also realized it could be lucrative.

One day, she went into her parents' bathroom and took close-up photos of her anatomy, which she then traded for a green Mandarin gown worth 12,000 "Gaia Gold" pieces that she used to dress up her avatar. "Honestly, I felt nothing," she says.

Loli says she became a social outcast in her Catholic middle school after admitting she was an atheist. She found it easier to make friends online, where her social awkwardness was mediated by distance and the barrier of a computer monitor. It wasn't long before another e-friend, Josh, introduced her to 4chan.

The lanky and pale-faced boy told Loli that 4chan was more fun than Gaia, but explicitly warned against posting pictures because the forums there were filled with pedophiles.

There were lots of jokes about such men on the boards, but Loli didn't take the rumors seriously. She began posting photos of herself a year later, thinking the older guys would be amused that "an actual 12-year-old" was reading their vulgar posts.

The first shot she uploaded to 4chan was benign; Loli had the same cherubic face she has today, but with long, light-brown hair and bangs. She looked even younger than her age, and that fact was exaggerated by a backdrop of dolls and teddy bears. The message written on her upraised hand was "Sup /b/" — a reference to the site's board for random, non-anime postings and an homage to Cracky's "Sup 4chan" introduction. Soon people began referring to her as a Chan, which both empowered her and fueled her desire to post. She says she became addicted to the attention, like a drug, and would check comments on her photos as soon as she got home from school every day.

She hadn't yet read Vladimir Nabokov's Lolita but understood the implication.

"I got given the name Loli because I looked even younger than I actually was," she says. "And while I initially thought it would be funny, it turned out I was the punch line."

She posted her screen name on the board and was courted by hundreds of men per day. She would chat with them for hours in the family computer room, where she had arranged the tower so it would block her parents' view of the monitor.

Loli-chan's images weren't pornographic; many were even innocent, such as a video in which she rapped the theme song from the TV show The Fresh Prince of Bel-Air. In fact, that was part of the appeal for many of the fans who found her endearing.

But for some people, those images were just a precursor to something awful waiting to happen. One day, Jacqueline Singh, a private military contractor in Iraq who frequented 4chan, decided enough was enough.

Loli had posted a photo of herself wearing a uniform bearing her school's logo. Singh called the school and told administrators about what their young pupil was doing online.

Just after Loli began eighth grade, her parents were called into a meeting with the principal and head priest.

The conversation at home afterward was awkward, Loli recalls. Her mom and brother sat there silently as her father told Loli all of her internet privileges were being revoked.

"It was basically super-embarrassing, and he framed it in terms of me posting pictures for pedophiles, which wasn't the way I looked at it," she says. "Unfortunately, I saw my parents as my enemies and thought they would never understand, and I had the attitude that I was gonna keep taking pictures and save them and post them all when I was 18."

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dadagudo
dadagudo

Blah blah blah. Loli is just one of the many other chicks that like posting their entire lives online and did so when 4chan was owned by basement nerds. Our culture by default always blame females to began with. If Loli was a male would it have been cared if she did such things? No, not really and infact may have been laughed at. But since she is female this is what happen.


American culture. Ya 4chan is full of all dungeon-walks of life but so is the Real-world. Expect in the real world it's more hidden.  Her parent's didn't bring loli up as a confident lady and this is what happens. Yes Loli guys are users and so are girls. Maybe parents should be more black-and-white with their kids on the behaviors and personalities of selfish and greedy adults than constantly putting them in a bubble-world of false security. Then again americans don't even know how to handle sexuality properly and when you have the curious like loli this happens. If schools were more teaching students not to be afraid of their sexuality and to identify good and bad people, then there would be less shaming involved.


Shame though she's become paranoid because of it, but she did end up having a few interests/stalkers. Oh and the guy who phoned loli's school absolutely sucks and is a coop-out.  Females in this country are taught to actually be ASHAMED of their bodies. This is a ridiculous thinking and it comes from puritan america. If a guy was nude it wouldn't be a shameful thing but a female it's treated as bad and ridicule. The guys who called loli a slut are obvious jerk-off faceless whores who just went along with the social-culture of body-shaming females and the fact that they probably thought loli was some random chick to be bullied with.


If loli though what she had was bad, imagine what pop-stars go through everyday. Course for them when they take their clothes off they get paid up in the thousands for one photo-shoot. Loli on the other hand could have made herself famous and rich by now but she allowed her mental weakness and uncertainty of herself to ruin that. Now her internet past is treated as a "shameful" thing. Some people just can't handle the attention or get the unexpected attention that they didn't really want in the first place when they realize it's not all fun and games. Yes, weirdo's are out there. Loli didn't know where to draw the line and with parents like hers their pretty much useless or punishing. People need to teach their kids how to handle things better.

jleavitt84
jleavitt84

This was an interesting article. I have never even heard of this person, but they have an interesting life. Thanks for sharing the article!


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verdisvioletta
verdisvioletta

Regarding her seeing young kids with an older man : "She carries pepper spray and pink polymer knuckles on her keychain in case such kids need a rescuer."  The fact that she has such cognitive dissonance to have fostered the furtherance of the pedophile community with thousands of lewd photos of herself over several years and CONTINUES to do so (even though she is 20 she looks VERY young) and thinks she is some kind of champion for the welfare of the victims of pedophilia is both sick and disgusting. Does she not realize she is one of the bedrock pioneers in postboard pedo porn in the exponential expansion phase of the internet? This woman ENCOURAGED those sick POS people and continues to do so now. She is an absolute piece of human garbage. Her parents should be ashamed of themselves that they still support her- she is not mentally ill- she is PLAYING THEM like she PLAYS EVERYONE ELSE.   

Anon
Anon

Do your research, Ms Conti. The drug is called 2C-E, not 2-CE, and it's not nasty in itself - like any hallucinogen, it depends on how it's used. They're not called "Chans" either, just the unpleasant "camwhores" - "-chan" is a Japanese honorific used as a term of endearment, as for young women.

darkalice93
darkalice93

Child exploitation often happens to young disabled children. I blame this woman's parents for being incredibly ignorant and manipulative. It angers me she was never encouraged to just live.Sad story and I hope this helps someone to not abuse or neglect their child.

thecommentarist1
thecommentarist1

Children do the most insane things when they're bored and never think ahead to consider the consequences of their actions.  If this girl-child had been unconditionally accepted in time, it's very likely that this story would never have come to be.  What a sad case!

Jose
Jose

cancer is cancer bro

Æon Flux
Æon Flux

I only read the first part. The point is: unsupervised internet use by minors is a no-no... at least for the first part of the read.

Elyse Laura
Elyse Laura

It says a lot when an article is six pages long and the first page has to be padded out with irrelevant history about the Trojan Room Coffee Cam.

jorgemederos
jorgemederos

Really interesting story, glad you guys wrote this...small glimpse into the dark world young kids are exposed to when unsupervised on the internet.

Alex Anico
Alex Anico

Started reading and then i stopped when i realized i didnt care...

Steve DeNiro
Steve DeNiro

they should have never given us the innanets

Jose
Jose

oh lawd. cancer cancer cancer

Frank Castle
Frank Castle

dont know whats the big thing with 4chan, its boring, i think only virgins go there

Jorge Mederos
Jorge Mederos

Interesting story. Very well written and captivating. Good job MNT, this one makes up for a lot of the crap you guys write/post.

Ivan Blanco
Ivan Blanco

You mean the same Loli-Chan that was, until recently, posting lewd pics of her birth canal on ChanSluts.com and charging people to watch her smoke weed and drop Ecstasy on Myfreecams.com? Poor thing.

robert.n.nielsen
robert.n.nielsen

Man there are some sick and very akward people in this world. I thought I saw everything in the military I was wrong. But as they say... only in FL

Erik Vairo
Erik Vairo

I'd like to know how this journalist was able to track her down for an interview.

dadagudo
dadagudo

Thing is this country needs to stop teaching kids to 'obey their superiors/adults'. They can listen to the GOOD advice of adults, and avoid the BAD advice of them. How to identify men that are users and vice-versa. Fact of matter is random strangers are that, still strangers. Loli did it for the attention, she did it for the fact that men wanted to see her. And yes that was something loli did and probably enjoyed herself for awhile until the negatives came out (the weirdo's and the stalkers). Loli is making herself bigger than what she is. She was basically a meme and internet legend, the average "person" wouldn't know wtf loli was. Walking around with key knuckles and crap is silly. Grow some balls loli and take some self-defense/gun classes, maybe even some task-force training to boost that wavering lost of self-confidence issues she has.


Poor thing was timid, I understand her position a little. I too had same social-making friends issue like loli, because in RL people expect you to be or act a certain way or want things from you. Now as a little older I could care less what other people thought and think and can piss on them if they do. On net it's easier to talk to random strangers who either share same interests or have something else. With the blow-up of facebook and the commercializing of the internet becoming a public-diary, that chapter in the internet life is coming to an end.  If the fly-by ads would stop teaching the internet as a "Scary and dark, bad place where everyone on it is a pedophile!" for the fear factor and simply present the internet as it is, a TOOL, then the dumbnass and generation gap of wannabe tech-savvy parents and nosey busy-bodies wouldn't be such a loop.


Kids hide things from their parents because they KNOW they will disapprove of it or be punished. It's the way to we handle our children. "Taking" things away does not necessary solve the problem and infact may encourage the person to rebel and find ways of being sneakier. Kids can't trust their parents because of the lack of OPEN-COMMUNICATION and SUPPORT when THINGS happen. No kids aren't right all the time but neither are adults. Loli at this point is just trying to erase her whole tiny segement on a 4-trillion connected web-servers. Loli needs to be treated like a normal adult, instead of her parents stuffing her into a tiny closet where the poor thing didn't have a real chance to grow up. She's still dependent on her parents, that's the part that's really sad. Loli was just using the internet as her escape-way into a better 'social-life' where she was accepted where it came down to it, and exploring her sexuality.


Loli is old now ya she may have some 'fans' left whoever but she's not a big deal. There's bigger fish in the pound so she says, the chick is just paranoid at this point. Move out mommy and daddy's house and live life kid.

mmysama
mmysama

@verdisvioletta  I agree with your logic here, even though she is a grown woman now, she should be held accountable for the things she did when she was 12 years old.  And when she was 12 years old, she was guilty of the terrible crime of providing social gratification to pedophiles, and for this, she is deserving of scorn.  Even worse, is the fact that she did her crimes during a critical period in the development of internet culture, if she acted a few years earlier, or later, it would not have been so bad, she should have been cognizant of this fact.  


But, I know someone who is far more deserving of your scorn.  There is a woman, who is in her mid 20s now, but when she was 13 years old, she had a sexual affair with a 30 year old man.  She was not forced into at at all, she was of sound mind and body, she acted entirely for the sake of her own sexual gratification.  The man ended up in prison, his life was ruined, and it was entirely her fault.  

Lungfish
Lungfish

@verdisvioletta Yeah, no.


You're plainly someone who has never interacted with others on a chan-style imageboard and doesn't understand the culture fostered upon them in that era. She was not intentionally seducing men or perpetrating a pedophile culture -- she was an eleven year-old girl who was dazzled by male attention and the idolization of cuteness. Praise and approval are addictive; I don't blame her for being blinded by them.

She probably does have several mental illnesses and requires treatment and coaching to succeed as an adult. As far as the article goes, I'd say she was sheltered during adolescence while still being overexposed to a warped, fleeting culture. She was very popular and successful at what she was taught to do -- show images of herself and entertain -- but that experience didn't teach her how to be a functioning adult. I feel nothing but sympathy and hope for a girl who accidentally deprived herself of her childhood.

getalife
getalife

@verdisvioletta You're judging a CHILD for encouraging them?  Can you even hear yourself?  She made a mistake AS A CHILD and is now trying to get by however she can with no work history and nothing to recommend her other than this.  The only piece of garbage I see is you, sitting in judgment of this poor woman whose youthful indiscretion has afflicted her in such a negative way.

verdisvioletta
verdisvioletta

@darkalice93 She exploited herself. Read the article. Know your 4Chan history. Nobody did this to her. Her parents tried to STOP her, but she continued behind their backs...and now wants people to feel sorry for her because she egged on pedophiles for YEARS and now she is afraid of what they might do to her if some sicko comes after her. You can't dangle your feet through the gates of hell and complain if you get burned. 

neitherofthemcame
neitherofthemcame

@Donnie Danger I go there and i've fucked two girls, so you should be questioning your thoughts.

 
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