Rush to Justice

I used to think it imperative that the killers (and their accomplices) knew I was strong, fearless and indestructible.  I thought they had to know I had no fear, I would not cower, I would not shake, I would not stop, I would not lie down, succumb, give up or fall and if I did any of the previous I would struggle, I would crawl, I would scratch myself out of any cave I fell into and fight again.  Ultimately they had to know I would not die.  The reality is, I died; again and again  - as year, by year I had to learn how to be alive again and live with seemingly perpetual defeat.  

It took me eight years to figure out that it makes no difference how strong and powerful I appear.  It won’t make the killers (and their accomplices) care.  It won’t make them human, no matter what I do -- one suspect in particular taught me that this past summer.

I know some people are distrustful of the police in this case.  I know some came forward and felt their concerns were not taken seriously.  I can’t fix that for anyone; if I could, I would.  But, I can listen and I can follow through on every lead.  I have no other cases or conflicts of interest.  Justice is obscure, and in this case, manipulated by the suspects and those with something to hide, but truth is tangible. Don’t let them steal the truth too; goodness knows they have a large enough debt already.

If anyone out there has something they want to share in this case, I will be in Miami in June and happy to meet with you.  Don’t let the horror of what you may know take up residence in your heart. 

My name is William Friedrich Fenzau, born November 10, 1966, named after my great-grandfather who emigrated to the US from Lithuania in 1903. I was murdered on June 7, 2005, in Miami. Some say I was killed by a confidant, some say I was killed by a lover, some say I was killed by a straight man when I showed the passionate audacity to be a gay man that fought back. The case remains unsolved, though the perpetrators are known. Some say one is already behind bars.

My sister and neice set up a Facebook page in my memory and because my murder, and its ensuing aftermath never stopped impacting their and the rest of my families’ lives.

I want my neice to know how much I loved her, how much the sight of her made my heart smile and that I will always watch over her. And that though her mother seems obsessed with the truth and understanding the past in order to live in the present, about that, she is right. Those who come before us teach us what we are capable of surviving. If our great-grandparents, Giuseppe Grande and Assunta Cifrodelli traveled for weeks on the open sea away from their homeland with the belief in something better, in something new; if they could survive that journey and make their way, having lost everything known to them and who they thought they were, then you too will survive anything put before you. And I want you to learn from my mistakes; never let a friend or even someone you love, lead you somewhere your heart knows is not right for you.

The truth is out there, the truth is known, the truth just needs to be revealed and it will be. Everything good and bad, truth, as well as secrets, eventually floats to the surface.

All future posts at: Facebook -  William Fenzau

In Rememberance:  November 10, 1967 - June 7, 2005

This past weekend we honored what would have been your 45th birthday.

There are a lot of good people who have tried to help your case, some of which never even met you.  As for the people who did know you and did not come forward with information - recognize that they are afraid.  Some are still holding secrets.  But give them time; they have goodness in them and their hearts will lead them to do the right thing, eventually.

There is no magic path to moving forward from your unsolved homicided.  The only way to live with the awareness of the depth of evil that was unleashed upon you, without accountability is to find that which is of equal depth, yet good, and be grateful for it every day.  If we can't fix the bad things that happen, at least we can try to level the playing field out there with good.

Thank you for hanging around me all these years.  So many times I have wished you could save me.  But you can't, just as I could not save you.

In my heart ..... granola

William's family is grateful to individuals who have come forward over the years and tried to help law enforcement get to the truth of who killed William and  why.  We may not know who you are, but you exist. We know it was not easy to come forward and we know people are afraid.  Please know we thank you for trying.  Thank you for your bravery and your compassion. .... Lori Grande

The sad fact is, more cases are dropped by the state of FL DA's who seem to need a case laid out for them as though they have no investigative teams at all. It's far higher than other states, that isn't the police departments fault if the DA can't or won't investigate and make the cases. It really says more about the state prosecutors office than anything else, the police found the man they believe killed this poor man, a man who made some seriously bad lifestyle choices that ultimately lead to his death. Did he deserve to die, of course not but could it have been avoided, most likely yes. Another sad fact is that while the police have their suspect, what are they supposed to do, the case was turned over his sister should be hounding the state prosecutor and investigators if she wants the man who killed her brother brought to justice.  I hope she doesn't give up but blaming the police who found the suspect is not going to get anything accomplished, keep talking to the media to keep the case alive and keep demanding the prosecutors office get the evidence needed for a solid prosecution of the murderer.  The First 48 isn't to blame and many episodes/crimes take months if not years to make an arrest and the show continues to follow cases that take longer to solve, just because they are filmed doesn't mean the police stop investigation after 48 hours. I do understand her pain but the blame should be put where it belongs, an inadequate  statewide prosecutorial staff that seems pervasive throughout Florida. I am so sorry for the family, because they are going to be their brother's only hope for justice and it's going to be an uphill battle for them.

Closure from the murder, closure from the cover-up by Will's friends or closure from the efforts of law enforcement to keep this case unsolved?  Yes, I'll take any of the previous.  But I cannot post the exact dates I will be in Miami or I might end up like my brother.  Please call me.

Lorie, are you in Miami?? or when will you be?? -may be able to assist with your quest for closure…...

or ... just call me @ 845-558-4693.

Dear Rewards90 I will be in Miami the end of July, please contact if interested.

Dear Rewards90 Please contact me at: wrathofasister@yahoo.com, or send contact information to: PO Box 98, West Nyack, NY, 10994, and we can discuss. Lori Grande

June 2012 Update: If I had known, what I know now, I would have done things dfifferently and I would have a resolution by now. What’s done is done. Can’t cry over spilled milk, but I can over spilled blood. So …. I am offering a financial reward to anyone able to successfully connect me with Ben. Please contact me at: wrathofasister@yahoo.com Ben, I understand you have friends in law enforcement; you got one up on me there. But I imagine they can be bought too. Thanks again A&E; Act II is beginning and you don't have permission to film that either.

Ben, let me see if I have this right.

On this day, seven years ago, you have a meeting with my brother which is arranged by Anthony. My brother insists on meeting you in person, you agree to meet at Anthony’s apartment, both you and my brother leave the meeting angry, a few days later my brother is dead, in the hours after his murder, you, Javier and Anthony have a meeting ... and you had no involvement in my brother’s murder? …. Humm

Ben,

We need to talk. Anthony knows how to get a hold of me, as does Javi and Juan, though as you know, Juan is hard to communicate with these days.

You have a tight wall around yourself, but I am just hoping that one of your friends, not excluding those in law enforcement, will get you the message.

Hope to hear from you soon.

Lori Grande

tsk. sad news.

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I wish I knew who murdered my brother. I wish my child could have closure in her Uncle's death. I hope this case is solved before any more lives are destroyed in its wake.

As for the producers of The First 48; I hope one day you understand that the profit that was made off of my brother's murder investigation was not worth the cost.

--Lori Grande

The sad thing is that this crazy dude Kevin Goode is working at a pizza shop on 41st Street in Miami Beach "Beyond by Shemtovs". He is around children and families all day, who knows what else he is capable of especially after getting away with murder once....LITERALLY!

The police should all be fired and that stupid show and it's producing company should be shut down for investigation tampering/hindering.

Filthy, media hungry pigs. Hope they all get raped to death by gay guys on meth...

Sorry that his sister has to deal with the incompetence of such terrible, terrible people.

To my beloved ... Happy Birthday, I carry you with me. Love, Sis Sis

To the infamous three: remember "... everything you see and do and touch, every seed you sow, or don't sow, becomes part of your destiny ..." (Abraham Verghese, Cutting For Stone)

P.S. The obvious shouldn't be minimized -- Innocent people dial 911.

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Dear Chief Exposito,

I am worried that you are not receiving my letters. I hope you get this one.

Upon reading the New York Times article, “Race Issues Rise for Miami Police,” I was surprised to discover that you are in support of another “reality” television show, “Miami’s Finest, SOS.” I guess this solves the mystery of my unanswered letters inquiring where you and other city officials stand on investigating the role television cameras played in the demise of my brother’s initial homicide investigation and the ethics involved in this filming. As I have said before; the public may be entertained, but is not served by a jeopardized homicide investigation.

Presumably, there is no point in articulating my concern regarding the possible constitutional violation of the police inviting the media into a private home to film without consent and then broadcasting that footage for corporate profit – especially when the footage broadcasted was my brother’s bloody body in his bloody home. In my cursory review, I found a few cases related to this issue: Ayeni v. Mottola, Berger v. Hanlon and Wilson v. Layne. There is also an interesting article on this topic written by Special Agent Kimberly A. Crawford of the FBI Academy, called, “Media Ride-Alongs: Fourth Amendment Constraints,” (FBI Enforcement Bulletin, Volume 69, Issue 7, July 2000; pgs.26-30). As this issue appears to warrant legal and scholarly critique, perhaps the City of Miami will consider a comprehensive analysis and review, instead of condoning exploitation of the dead.

Now that I am aware of your support of the City of Miami Police participating in “reality” television, my future correspondence will just be related to the unsolved case.

Sincerely,

Lori Grande

cc: Miami FBI Special Agent in Charge John V. Gillies Florida State Attorney General Pam Bondi State Attorney Katherine Fernandez Rundle Mayor Tomas Regalado Commissioner Marc Sarnoff

Ah snoopy, good to hear from you again. Still no balls huh? Give it time, they'll grow. Peace be with you.

Lori Grande

Drug dealing scum should all be dead like this fenzau punk.

Hi m.b., Thank you so much for commenting. You seem to be confident in your opinion. I like that. I wonder if you could comment a little more to describe how it is you reached this conclusion? I'm wondering if you could comment on Mexican Ben at all as he was in town at the time of the murder and remains, like Berry, somewhat untouchable. Please feel free to write me at: loriegrande@optonline.net. -or- a more anonymous route: PO Box 98, West Nyack, NY, 10994. Thank you again. Lori Grande

valeri was not involved in any way . berry,goode,&vito are responsible plain and simple

Sure, I will send you an E.

You do know quite a bit about Michelle. Unfortunately she got a pass out of this country and she is smart enough not to come back unless she has a new identity. Regardless of where suspects are living, I intend to get to the truth. I would be interested in speaking with you further via a different forum. There is more I would like to ask, but not here. I can be reached at: loriegrande@optonline.net -- thanks again.

Sorry, "relationship with will" with Michelle I intended. getting late!

Again my condolences.

You are welcome. I am trying to think back during the time of my relationship with will.

I know I had met Vito a couple of times, but i really am trying to remeber if I had ever met Will. I did know a William but Michelle use to call him Billy.

Kieth Brandreth was the name of Michelle's X before me. Kieth had died of Unknown Cuases, (listed as Overdose). After learning more about Michelle, and her dark past, I came to the conclusion that she had cuased his death, and started to worry about myself.. HEr behavior was extremely odd, including marry a known drug dealer named Salvador for immigration papers during our relationship.. I remeber she used to drag her kid with her to his hosue and smoke meth right there with her kid around. I used to find her in the pantry or hiding wheerever .. This is who she was crying for in that interrogation ? Please, such fake tears. I knew her like a book. I spent over 2 years with her.

Her mother also was dating a criminal when I had last seen her. Her entire U.S. family has been around criminals forever. Her family in Brazil has some political involvement and seemed very nice. Michelle changed her ways when we were in Brazil. Just more of her scary mood swings... Hopefully they will question her again one day and the truth may come out. 99 percent she had something to do with it, if not commiting that act herself.

Thank you Anthony for your condolences. I agree it seems odd how Michelle slipped out of this investigation. I think that is an excellent question for the Miami DEA and the original lead Detective in the case. It also seems odd that Mexican Ben was never questioned in the investigation seeing as he was in town at the time of the murder and not discreet in terms of his communication and meetings with people being questioned in this case. Sadly, law enforcement is unable to locate Mexican Ben. This too seems odd, considering Mexican Ben showed up in a public courtroom when a suspect in this case was sentenced in an unrelated case. Apparently, Mexican Ben is just a real nice guy that likes to show his support for friends - especially when they might be questioned by a Judge if they knew anything about this murder. It's all very confusing and I don't understand much.

One thing I do know is that every detail of forensic evidence collected in the crime scene should be processed if the goal is to solve this crime and get the right person(s) behind bars. If the MPD and SAO are financially or otherwise restricted from processing all of the evidence perhaps an outside, third party might do so. Between the profits made off of this homicide via its commercial value and the number of law enforcement agencies involved in it, one would presume someone has the resources to process the evidence of a brutal homicide. No? It's all very confusing and I don't understand much, though I have to admit, it's getting clearer as the years pass. Thank you again for your condolences Anthony.

I had known one of the people interogated for this case. I saw the episode by accident while on vacation. THey never really pressured Michelle it seemed.... odd considering her past. I knew michelle for 2 years before she disapeared and the next time i saw her was 1.5 years later on tv being interogated for murder.

Kinda strange since the father of her child (baby girl) Christina Luiza, has a Mysterious UNKNOWN as the cause of death on his death certificate and also was a well known drug dealer on South Beach.

I spent 2 years with Michelee both in the united states and in brazil with her family.. she is a pathelogical nightmare, and I hope that if they are still investigating the case that they focus more on Michelee as it seems odd she is always around a mysterious dead friend / boyfriend .....

I am sorry for your loss Lori. I did not know William...

Hey Snoopy,

I just check back periodically to see if you have grown any balls. Not yet, huh? Give it time something might come up for you when you least expect it.

Dear Kristy, Not sure if you will read this but ...

I am very sorry for your loss and for the proverbial pouring of salt in the wound which comes from having a loved one's death used for profit and publicity through The First 48. As other cities around the country analyze the impact associated with filming homicide investigations, it would be nice for Miami to do the same. Death, like birth is personal, private and sacred (even when it is violent and gory -- maybe more so) and should not be taken advantage of just because the deceasesd is unable to sign a release.

As for Snoop's comments. So be it. At least I rest well knowing my brother had the guts to stand behind what he said and was not a coward.

Kristy, the fact that you have stayed clean after the murder of your boyfriend and raising a young child without her father is demonstration of your incredible will -- don't lose that. Children bring us into the moment like nothing else on this planet can (except, perhaps, our dogs). Peace be with you and thanks for your posting. .... Lori Grande

I think Williams sister is right onthe mark. My boyfriend was killed in Miami and his case was featured on First 48. The police tried to make it look real good for t.v. but in reality have done very little to find out who is responsible for his death. His name was Jon Dixon and I believe it is because he was an addict and homeless that they have done very little to find out who killed him. Some of you who read that are familiar with his case from the show may htink that he didn't matter to anyone cuz he was a homeless addict, however that could not be farther from the truth. I was an addict myself and was brought back home by my family by force while he was in jail for drugs. They saved my life and the life of my unborn child. I have been clean now for 5 years and miss him dearly. Alot of people say that i'm better off without him but what they don't realize is that the reason he was homeless was because he chose to stay down in FLA. as to give me and our unborn child a shot at having a life. He felt that if he was here he would just f*#@k it up and i'd start using again. He gave up his chance at having a family and life for me and his child which was one of the most unselfish things he could have done. So to anyone posting comments please think b4 u type..Even some of the most destitute people out there who u think wouldn't have anyone who cared about them actually do. these people no matter what they have done were someone's son, father, husband, boyfriend, uncle , brother or friend so please remember that. my prayers to his family especially sister and neice.and Jon I miss u and Love u and so does ur daughter alyssa

... hmmm ... sounds like Snoop doesn't have any balls.

Oh, and SNOOP, I don't know if you realize this, having decided 9 months after this article was published to sign on and write a comment such as you did, but ... you wrote that comment the day after a suspect was released from federal custody. Any correlation?

DEAR SNOOP,

Think before you write. Because before this is all over someone else is going to wind up dead and I would hate to see you get mixed up in this. Good idea to not put your name on the post.

...hmmm...sounds like a community service to me.

What is worse; to be the one to take a life or be the many to perpetuate evil through silence and indifference?

In Memoriam: William Fred Fenzau, November 10, 1966 � June 7, 2005.

To be real and true - the time for justice for William has passed. Too many forces worked against it.

Further, there remain voices which have harbored secrets about this homicide for four years. For those people - you know how you are - the first cut may be the deepest, but inaction, pours salt in the wound.

As for law enforcement of every branch; you may scorn me - but know that you have helped to create who I have become. The rest, I know, is up to me to resolve, and I will. What is lost is untouchable as is what remains.

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I remember this from the First 48, but I don't get the angle of the article. (other than to be sensationalistic I guess) How did the show rush the detectives? Where in the article is there anything to substantiate this incredible claim? Did the reporter even try to talk to the producers? The reporter seems to contradict himself whenever he brings up the show. He even tries to back the prosecutor into blaming the show, but the prosecutor can't do it. The reporter's quote about the show's premise is all wrong from the start - the show never says anything about an arrest in the first 48, just that its important to get a lead in that time. As the reporter states in the article, the detectives didn't arrest Goode until two weeks later, after DNA evidence came through linking Goode's blood to the crime scene. That and all the other evidence about Goode's cuts seems like pretty good probable cause to me. Sounds like Goode had a really good defense attorney and he got off on a bunch of technicalities. If the reporter really wanted to help the victim's sister out, he should have focussed on that aspect!